A Splinter of Life

Pictures contain many stories
but this only has one.

In the mid year of 2005, I laid in my yard contemplating surgery. I had been diagnosed with ovarian cancer.
As I looked up I saw a swarm of dragonflies. I was amazed for never in my life had I ever seen a swarm of dragonflies. I lay there just watching as some flew down so close to me I could here their wings sing.
After this experience I knew I could heal and win without surgery. I felt up lifted, lite in weight, as if a heavy boulder had been weighting me down all the days prior of my life.
I felt what I believe was a positive energy flow through me. But when anger struck me, a negative force, I fell. The positive energy flow left.
I had surgery and survived, but it was a choice I made, no longer do I seek doctors or medications.  They were not a favorite anyway. Nearly seven years has past since I had surgery. I battle no doctors recommendations. However, I do recall a time in 2010 I sought out therapy, because of what I was feeling inside. I read a poem to the therapist after explaining my history. She said “I think you need a website”.  It has taken me until now to begin sharing and explaining my life. It may not matter to you, but it matters to me.  To me I have been given a chance to see my life past and present with new eyes. It has not come overnight, but came like the speed of light.
Cancer may be inside me, but Spirit will win. One day I will feel this positive flow of energy through my veins once again, and so I pray.
God knows my hopes and dreams.
As for the tapestry, it is something I ran across that helped give meaning to my life. I am not sure of the exact date of purchase but believe it was in 2006. I shared my love about dragonflies with someone else when I bought car mats for them, they were quite colorful with dragonflies on them.

About billiescauldron

I am in transition. I see myself as a Spiritual Writer and as such my blog will slowly change with me still holding tight to being in the garden as a child loving my teacher.
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