Kingdom Garden Grow
I recently received a long letter from my son Ezra, the longest letter I believe I have ever received.
In his letter he tells of a story about a mother who was given 10 to 15,000 dollars who used it rather than saved as he said was the agreement. Mother does not call him a liar but has her own story that is not quite the same as her son’s story.
Mother told many a people how her son has FINALLY changed becoming more responsible and helping pay her bills when he was on work release and that all she could do was hope he continued this path when released. Mother was very proud of the son who was doing so well. Thinking that he was helping pay the increased bills of having Uriah live here, even though Uriah gave some of his check to help it really did not cover all the added expenses. Mother also took what he was giving as payment of what she lost from irresponsible ways of his past. Mother couldn’t grasp why all the money. All mother could remember was that she didn’t remember any such agreement as he stated. For mother knows she would have never done such a thing of spending and using money he sent to be saved. Month after month after he paid bills (usually credit card bill) he would ask for this or that to be mailed, picked up at Lowe’s or ordered. Most of this was asked in letters that are still in mother’s draw, but mother has no desire to search out and lay everything out in order or back through all bills to see exactly what was paid and what went out, to who and what for.
All the lies mother speaks of came from the past. Remembering when her son first was caught in a lie, and was taken to the place where he stole something that didn’t belong to him. The next lie that mother remembers came from drugs, where it was proved in a urine test. From then on mother hoped that one day Satan and his lies would let go of her son. Mother saw her son Ezra go to depths and then rise again only to fall and climb over and over again. Mother hopes that in Ezra’s heart he makes wise choices in love of God, Yahweh so one day to never live in the depths again.
Mother knows people’s path is not an easy road. Even mother’s path is not easy as she hopes that when Uriah returns from his vacation (he relieves he actually gave mother a vacation without her even leaving home) and begins taking the necessary steps to have a place of his own. Even though mother appreciates all that he does do, there is much that is not appreciated, that causes raging seas. For within mother’s heart there is a place of calm where the still waters flow gently with everlasting life as the seeds of change, of the flowers and trees grow, where the animals flourish without drugs for this and that, providing food for the table to be nourished for eternity. The road is narrow and one enters through the heart in love of our Father God.
Mother is resting, and healing, while her sons are away finding their way.